Lately I have been thinking a lot about life. Where things are going and where it is taking me. Looking back on last year I am amazed how long ago it seems and how things just keep moving to different things.

This site Shroom Heat dot com for instance has some old pictures off of an old cell phone. I think I still have them on Picasa. One thing that amazes me is just how radically different my perspective on my life and self is. Things that amazed me last year, now draw no interest from me what so ever.

On the other hand things that I could not conceive last year seem very special right now. But I know that in a year whatever that was will be gone and replaced by the next thing.

For instance I took up skateboarding again for the first time in years. For a few months it seemed amazing. But now honestly I never want to skateboard again. It is not that I am hurt, but rather skateboarding after a few days gets so boring.

I kinda like casting things aside and going for the latest and greatest thing. Some people tell me that I change every week. I feel like I change every day.

But sometimes I feel like I fool myself and I get stuck in these weird ruts.

Like I think that I am something and I totally forget who I was, who I am and who I will be. Many people advocate keeping it real, but when I do that I feel like I am stuck in the past.

There is a fine line that I can never find. And If I go too fast and chase dreams and aspirations once again I forget who I am. Life is full of some weird choices with some pretty surreal outcomes.